• Betch@lemmy.world
    9·
    10 months ago

    ⭐⭐⭐

    I’ve been feeling off for the past couple months. Two nights ago I decided to do shrooms, I had been putting it off for over two years because I knew deep down I would have a difficult experience and I was right. I took 2 grams as tea with lemon juice, plus 1g eaten. I spent 3 hours which felt like days just screaming and crying. I felt emotional pain like I’ve never felt in my life before, it was absolute never ending insanity. I cried so much my eyes were almost swollen shut.

    My mother has been sick for a long time now and it has been very difficult to deal with and I’d mostly been avoiding it. The mushrooms reaaaally shoved it in my face, they were absolutely brutal about it and made me feel the pain of the loss of my mother for the first 30 minutes. Then they decided to show me that people have lived through the pain of loss since the beginning of time by making me feel that pain through the eyes of thousands of people through thousands of generations lol. It was like I was going through a fractal of the lives of people down generations and generations but only the painful parts of their lives and I felt their emotions so vividly. That lasted for like two and a half hours, with small 5 minute breaks here and there where the trip would go down a bit and I could breathe until it would just pull me back in to this infinite spiral of emotional torture.

    During the entire trip, every time I would get a small break I would just be crying, wishing for it to be over. I wanted to get off. 30 minutes after it ended and I went to bed I was already asking myself when the next time was gonna be hahah.

    Yesterday I was just in shock all day, eyes still swollen as hell and with the worst headache of my life.

    Today I am much better physically but mentally I am still in shock.

    Sorry for the wall of insanity.

      • Betch@lemmy.world
        3·
        10 months ago

        Hahah well that experience was 2 nights ago so I’ve had time to recover a bit. I still randomly get flashes of the experience and some of the feelings associated with it though and I suspect it’s gonna be like that for a couple days, until I’m done kinda processing and integrating everything that happened. But yeah, 3-star day today, which is slightly better than my average lately.

  • BallShapedMan@lemmy.world
    71·
    10 months ago

    ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

    I woke up, some people didn’t.

    I decided it would be a great day before it got started.

    In ~5 weeks I’m going to be a grandpa!

  • flicker@lemmy.world
    5·
    10 months ago

    🌟

    I got up. Took my adderall. Before it kicked in I locked my house door and stepped outside.

    Without my house or car keys. I had my wallet and my phone.

    I was able to get a friend to pick me up to take me to the landlord’s office to get a key, and when we got there, realized I’d left my wallet on the ground where I was sitting outside my home.

    We go back, get the wallet, get the key. I had to reschedule an appointment I missed for the afternoon, and then after getting my car keys I got a call that I was late for the reschedule. Hell.

    I got inside and my period started at some point during all of this (a week early, and ruining my undies!) I’m not leaving again until I have to help a friend get home from work later. I might not go out tomorrow or the next day either…

  • kiwifoxtrot@lemmy.world
    5·
    10 months ago

    ⭐⭐⭐⭐

    Life’s pretty good. Deducted one star for being tired today and some added stress at work. Those are pretty temporary things though.

  • SuperSynthia@lemmy.world
    4·
    10 months ago

    Two stars. Stuck at work with a bunch of really great people that just so happen to suck at the same time. At least when we’re famous singers we’ll look back at this and laugh

  • Monster@lemmy.world
    4·
    10 months ago

    ⭐️⭐️⭐️ Cold moved to my tonsils and I still feel sore but I still feel mentally better knowing both my parents are over their sicknesses

  • Victor@lemmy.world
    4·
    10 months ago

    Sitting at ⭐⭐🌟 right now. A little more than 3.

    Life is pretty good. Comfy job, good pay. But stressful kids and family sitch, with daycare and kind of slow progress at work, and I’m tired all the time because I don’t have time for everything I want to do, like play music and play games and exercise and hang with the family and such. Home is a mess all the time due to the kids as well. And ngl, fiancee is pretty messy too, and I want a clean and tidy home in order to feel comfortable and at peace. But she’s stressed too so I can’t blame her either.

  • Solemn@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    4·
    10 months ago

    3/5. Work is a bit of a drag these last couple weeks, and I messed up a bit in my hobbies and made myself a bunch more work to correct that.