That’s exactly it. I miss the beautiful lie that never truly existed.
I lamented my big ex for a years who left me for someone with money. Oddly it was a Wes Anderson film, The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou, that broke my fever.
He had a submarine on his ship that was once called Jacqueline but the name was crossed out. At some point his new found son asked who Jacqueline was, and Steve says the damndest thing:
“She didn’t really love me”
That was the important bit missing in my heart. There wasn’t something that had been truly lost, it was never there to begin with. The person I thought I loved was a mirage and a facade. I’m sure for some that would make it worse, but it helped me greatly.
As someone who struggles with yearning for an abusive ex… thanks. I think I kind of needed that too.
It’s a crazy thing to finally be able to say.
My parents warned me 13 ish years ago that she doesn’t really love me and will cause a lot of pain one day when I realize that.
Oooo boy I wish I listened
It makes me sad that we won’t get another season of him.
He was in one of the worst seasons of Dexter too but was the shining light in it all. A gay mafia boss who was executing people left right and center to get vengeance for his lost love. Such an incredible character and portrayed AMAZINGLY well. Dude won me over immediately. I’ll watch anything with him in it and he was definitely the best part of Ahsoka by far. Although… that’s not saying a huge amount, unfortunately.
Now Andor…
He’s also fantastic in Rome, an older HBO show if you haven’t seen that one.
An older HBO show
I just felt myself immediately crumble into dust
Yeah, most people these days watch the colorized version, but it should really be appreciated in the original black and white.
Hey now, even I Claudius was in color, cut that shit out. Who sent you, AARP?
TITUS PULLO!
He is also fantastic in Black Sails
What show was this?
Ahsoka
Ah, tyvm!
His story arc was kinda the most interesting out of all the BS of ahsoka. Fallen jedi (i wouldnt even call sith) acting as a mercenary because of a calling in the force. The same thing calling him, scaring the nightsisters away.
7 years down the fucking shitter and she only left after she finished destroying my life. I wish things didn’t end the way they did because my memories of her are all tainted with the knowledge that she was never who I thought she was.
I just got out of an 8 year relationship within the last month. I don’t know what to offer you besides hoping that you did have some good memories to remember together and it sounds like not having them in your life is better in the long run for you. Hopefully your time together helped improve you as a person and you can go forward a stronger person, or the emotional space you have now can help lead you down a path of self-improvement.
Honestly I have been searching desperately for a silver lining and there truly just isn’t one. I lost my job because of the stress of trying to save the relationship and mental health has been too wrecked to even begin the search for new work. My apartment looks like a hoarder’s den because I can’t bring myself to do any chores. My health is deteriorating rapidly due to stress and because I don’t eat most days. Not for lack of money, I just can’t bring myself to do anything. And the fucking nightmares, every night. I’ve become so jaded I don’t even recognize myself anymore.
I miss her tits
The duality of man
You’ll find another pair don’t you worry. Life has it’s ups and downs.
RIP Mr Stevenson
