Honestly I have been searching desperately for a silver lining and there truly just isn’t one. I lost my job because of the stress of trying to save the relationship and mental health has been too wrecked to even begin the search for new work. My apartment looks like a hoarder’s den because I can’t bring myself to do any chores. My health is deteriorating rapidly due to stress and because I don’t eat most days. Not for lack of money, I just can’t bring myself to do anything. And the fucking nightmares, every night. I’ve become so jaded I don’t even recognize myself anymore.