I’m so fucking irritable right now, every little thing is annoying me and my chest is tight, I keep clenching my teeth. I’m very familiar with these things, these are how my body is telling me “go smoke a ciggy”
Problem is, I haven’t done that for a year and a half. I’ve had this happen before, sometimes years on into my quittings, its always random and it’s always insufferable, like I’m a former psychonaut who accidentally cracked his spine 20 years later. Does this happen to anyone else out there? Any tips? I had a glass of wine but it didn’t help take the edge off much
Quit cold turkey in 2017 after 30 years of pack a day. More if drinking. Tried vaping, just ended up being a way to smoke more.Got a gnarly case of pneumonia and wadded up everything I had left for smoking and threw it all in the trash. No cravings anymore but I still dream about it.
I feel that, 2015 or so when I was about 21 I got a spontaneous pneumothorax (basically a popped lung) everyone has these weak spots on their lungs called blebs, but I had just the right mixture, being white, being tall, being skinny, being male, and being a smoker, to be high risk for those blebs getting too weak and rupturing. Literally happened 3 times before in a row due to complications and my dumb ass still went back to vaping a year or so later. Did stop smoking pot though, so that’s something.