As for me:
Due to Christmas rapidly approaching my place earns increasing amounts of money.
It would be so easy to just snag a whole day of store income and forever vanish into another country.

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    6 days ago

    Trigger Warning: Attempts of ending my own life

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    Going to the nearest bridge and just jump off.

    And um…

    when I was a kid…

    So I saw a knife in my kitchen when I was a kid (like maybe 12 or 13), I just thought “what if I sliced my throat” I held the knife like maybe 5 inches from my throat, then survival instincts kicked in and I put it back, then I got scared of dying for a while. Never told anyone. I wasn’t even diagnosed with depression back then, so probably not even being suicidal, just a weird thought that popped in my head.

    My parents was being shitty at the time, so idk if that was really suicial thoughts or intrusive thoughts.

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      It’s called “L’appel du vide” or “call of the void” and quite normal.

      It’s an old instinct to think through the consequences of dangerous things instead of actually doing them.

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      I don’t think those are intrusive thoughts, at least that’s not what mine are like.