Mine? As miserable as ever. My little bro wanted to go to a little comic con thing, is just not my vibe, felt surrounded by people in weird costumes is just… Thankfully I was there for like half an hour.
I had a cookout at my house, had maybe 15 people over, lots of drinking, lots of swimming. I just got a new grill for the party and it was nice to cook on. Today I’m working 12 hours which is annoying but that’s life.
I had a job interview Friday and no one was there to interview me. Apparently HR dropped the ball. It’s 110 outside and I’m homeless and living out of a car atm. We had thunderstorms which meant rolling up the windows. I only have a few bucks left and therefore cannot run the AC because of gas. Once the storms were over it was back to 110 but with nearly 100% humidity and even more sweating. I’m currently stealing WiFi to write this out and I’m hungry AF. So yea, bummer about your 30 minutes.
There are mutual aid communities on lemmy where you might be able to find someone willing to send you some cash through an app. Good luck.
Yeah it was a weird experience.
I assume you’re quite young, which is great! I’d suggest learning to enthusiastically jump into whatever activity you wind up in. It’s way more fun that way.
At a comic con? Throw on a mask and start talking in a funny voice!
At an opera? Listen closely to the sounds and try to enjoy the artisticness of the performance!
In a big grassy field with nothing to do? Take your shoes off and let the grass tickle your feet!
In my experience it’s easy to judge things as lame and to tell yourself that you’re too cool for that thing, but that winds up not being fun, and you wind up missing out on a lot of stuff that you actually would’ve enjoyed if you let yourself get into it. Learn to be open to trying new types of experiences and you’ll wind up having more fun in life!
I’m not like that unfortunately. I would NEVER wear a costume, hell, I wouldn’t ever went there to begin with
I used to be that way too, but it’s a skill that you learn through practice. Like push yourself to get into things just a teeny tiny bit to start with for now. Then after awhile it’ll be easy to get to that point of toe-dipping, so then you push yourself to go in a bit more next time, and do that every time you’re at some activity, and then eventually you’ll find it easy to jump right into the deep end of every activity. But it does take some effort to push yourself in the earlier stages
And that’s the problem, that just isn’t me. I’m like that for everyone and everything. I get that isn’t normal, but it is what it is. I just despise being forced to do social stuff, a cringe like situation like a comic con is probably even worse.
Is like changing nature, you just can’t do that. That’s how rooted is this thing on me, I can’t change it.
Would you want to change it if you could?
It would probably make in existence less useless and maybe would had gave me a girlfriend in my lifetime, I dunno though. I know that isn’t me.
You honestly sound very depressed and like you really don’t know what you ARE. Try things, open mindedly, and you may find that some of these things are you, or can be fun regardless. Stop getting in your own way.
If you want to change this about yourself, then you can see a therapist to help you do it. You don’t have to be mentally ill to see a therapist, they can just help you make changes in yourself that you want to make. For something like this you would want to see a CBT therapist
Do you speak Swahili?
No?
Does that mean you can’t learn Swahili?
Probably no. I know that’s the language the Majini speak in resident evil 5 though.
So you don’t like comic cons (they have other things at those events besides manga and comics) but you know the language the NPCs speak in a video game?
You should honestly fit right the fuck in at one of those. Honestly, the awkward self-pity already does. I meet so many people who are incredibly shy/awkward/what-have-you show up and it’s actually their first one, and they always end up having an absolute blast.
You’re surrounded by like-minded people who are just there to nerd out and have fun with their community. And sometimes the costumes can actually be amazing.
I’m saying you’re a general intelligence. You have the kind of intelligence between your ears that the largest companies on the planet would gladly pay 100 billion dollars to be able to create.
You can learn and change and grow. “I am this” or “I am not that”. This just isn’t how it works. We cut off parts and build new parts all the time.
What do you like to do?
They hate
They like to be defined, to know they’re giving the impression of a particular character, inducing a particular feeling in their audience.
Crickets
Have you ever acted in anything? A play, a movie, a skit, improv?
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I’m very sorry. It’s so hard to lose them.
Very sorry dude(tte). These are tough moments :(
Ngl this is one of the reasons I never wanted any pet after reaching adulthood.
Rip to the dogs.
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Bro here acting like a lil bro with his lil bro
The Left ranked first at the elections in France, so suddenly much, much better than the expected brown/black outcome.
Politics… Too dumb to understand them and honestly don’t care to vote about anything. Everyone’s corrupt anyways.
Up and down. Depression hit me super hard, slept/read 14-hour days, but despite that, there were some great things.
Took the family out on my little 10’ boat and watched the downtown fireworks from the river. We were directly underneath, cardboard shells raining on us! What a rush! None of us has ever seen anything like it.
Been limping along with a shit fridge that barely works. Got a new one from FB for $200! Nicest fridge I’ve ever had. Going to be a huge project swapping them. Hell, getting it out of the other guy’s house was a chore.
And tonight we’re hitting Aldi and loading up on food. Can’t wait to have a good fridge, freezer and ice maker again.
That sounds interesting enough.
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I went to Vienna to see Kraftwerk and it was really great. Vienna itself is a bit shitty though IMO
My weekend was interesting. Opened my gaming mouse to swap the left mouse button switch since mine had started doing random double clicks. Discovered the battery was building pressure. Kinda a pain because it’s still sitting disassembled while I wait for a new battery, but I’m glad I did find it like that instead of it eventually starting a fire when the package ruptured.
Oh also apparently some spiders successfully mated in my place and the spiderlings hatched on Saturday. I’ve relaxed my “catch and release, no kill” rule for spiders until further notice, though the one bigger one that showed up last night still got that. Looking around, I don’t see any right now. Guessing I’ve killed like 40 so far. Apparently it’ll take them a week or two to starve, assuming they don’t catch some of the few bugs in here.
It sounds like you’re not really interested in how everyone spent their weekend and want to vent instead. But on the off-chance that I’ve misjudged the situation: the weather was kinda shit, so I spent most of my weekend playing The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles on the Switch. Is good game.
Far far too short, though did have a mates birthday so that was fun
My depression has been trolling its way back recently, I was doing good since January… Those two weeks have been hard. Keep crying without knowing why exactly during my visits at my psychologist.
But the weekend wasn’t that bad. We went to the municipal pool yesterday, the kid was happy. Today we went to the beach with friends, it was a most beautiful and relaxing day. When we came back, everything started going so wrong, I became super clumsy and almost broke stuff multiple times. Ended up screaming at myself and went to my office in the basement to isolate myself.
I feel bad for my wife and son. They deserve better than what I can offer right now.
You also deserve better than what you can offer right now. You deserve to be well taken care of, including by yourself.
This means when you fuck up while trying to take care of yourself, you can be angry at yourself for fucking up, or you can be compassionate to yourself in recognition of your loss.
I have a very hard time not being angry at myself. But I agree with you.
Shit, that blows. Sorry to hear that.
I went to a small (~30 people) festival dedicated to wood carving, because I was asked if a wanted to cook for everyone. Found it very inspiring to get an impression of that very specific sub culture.
Pretty good!
I am in parental leave for another two months so I get to play with the little one and stay home.
