Why do you write so much? You wrote 11 paragraphs but really only needed 1 or 2. I understand that you’re probably really lonely but you’re coming off strong and obsessive. Like it’s fine to be sensitive and caring but it seems like you are dramatically and heavily tying your emotions to your partner’s. What you’ve written reminds me of that creepy girlfriend meme from like 10 years ago.
This woman: 
You’re correct. I wrote that at around 4 am and I had a variety of other errors as well on my first draft, that one happened to slip through.
Honestly right on red is so stupid. So many people don’t even slow down and they just go. Sometimes I’ll be waiting to turn right at red light and some dickhead in a behemoth truck behind me will start spamming their horn like they think I have the right away and can just mow down whichever pedestrians are in the crosswalk. I bike a lot and I have narrowly avoided being hit by a car turning right on red multiple times. One time I had a car graze my back tire which was really scary but fortunately I ended up okay.
That would be strange if Annisem literally wrote removed and then changed it to transexual later. Only reasons I can think of is that it was a bizarre attempt at trolling or they really did mean removed and then changed it because people thought it actually got removed. It’s also possible they did originally write a different word such as the t slur which they changed to transexual after seeing that what they originally wrote got removed.
Kinda strange that world blocks that word. I’m on a queer instance and I can still see that word, in fact I don’t think I have ever encountered any removed words on my instance.
I use obsidian for just text stuff I need to remember later. If I need to do math or need a diagram temporarily I prefer pencil and paper. If I want to save diagrams for later I have a drawing tablet that I use like a whiteboard so that I can save and use layers. If you don’t have a drawing tablet Autodesk sketchbook is a decent substitute that can be used on your phone.
I think of my past self in a sympathetic way because my past self endured so much pain so that I can be happy today. I’d rather not think of my past self because I find it rather depressing so I generally avoid my past but I do recognize it’s existence. Although my old self really just feels like a husk and not a real person. In addition a lot of my past is a blur so I don’t remember much anyways.
I do keep old pictures so I can reminisce about the past if I feel like it. I generally feel bittersweet when looking at those old photos because I am reminded of how depressed I used to be but it also allows me to see how far I’ve come since then. Other things such as my deadname are entirely negative for me so that I something I have erased as best I can.
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Taking time to just think about whatever in quiet. I do it outside if it’s nice and it’s so peaceful.
Sometimes if you’re exaggerating, especially online, it’s good to specify because it can be hard to tell through text. I think you’ll be fine though given that you are open to feedback.