Ah okay, that makes more sense. Thanks for explaining.
I’ve played in orchestras for most of my life, so I’m sure I’ve been inadvertently exposed to some binaural beats when the people around me can’t play in tune. I can’t say it made me feel particularly good, but it certainly had an effect on me in hindsight.
I’ve been feeling the same way a lot recently. The only social media I have left is snapchat, and that’s purely because I have a 1000+ day streak with a friend that I feel obligated to maintain. Every now and then I’ll wind up on whatever they call their doomscrolling video platform and it feels like fifteen minutes of my life just vanishes into thin air. And whenever I close it, I’m vaguely pissed off and my eyes hurt, but the slight boredom that incentivized me to go there in the first place is still hanging around, so I just feel restless and dissatisfied. It’s frankly exhausting. I’m in the “this sucks and I don’t want to do this anymore but I’m going to do it anyway and be mad about it” phase of my internet addiction and just haven’t quite found the right combination of other habits to prevent me from wandering into those corners of the internet when I don’t have anything to do for more than two minutes.