Do you have access to therapy? This sounds like depression and the best way forward is to talk to a doctor.

Yo, seriously you need to talk to a therapist to help you unpack all of that. You’re 20, you’ve got time to grow and mature. Definitely look into taking some classes at a community college, lots of folks your age there.

Get a hobby too … volunteer…

Good luck.

Also life changes a lot in the next few years. Like how you probably are significantly different than your 15 year old self.

As for the social thing…it’s always intimidating until you start trying…are you going to goof up, absolutely, but you learn and grow. Also young adults are not a horrible as middle schoolers or highschool. Self confidence will help lots with that, but it’s also a fake it until you make it thing too.

I found my improv class to be rather silly good fun, and everyone is nervous together.

You could take a part time job near more people like a restaurant or somewhere with staff near your age.

There are easy little classes like pottery or some shit you can just have a reason to be near people in a low-stress yet structured way.

Sign language class is also surprisingly fun, and and it could be helpful to other people later perhaps.

You could join a fitness club like running or biking or something. That will keep you fit and near other fit people. Healthy people have better sex.

Community theater is also filled with possible fun people to know. Generally it’s a fun creative crowd to be around, you don’t have to be on stage, although you should aim for that, and everyone is mostly outgoing and there to be silly and happy.

Go toward groups of people who are endeavoring to undertake some kind of task together. There will be music and girls eventually.

I went through a similar phase in college. Took me over 6 months of putting myself out there, saying yes to every social gathering, going to every club/activity that sounded interesting, smiling and being friendly with everyone I met to make my first friend. Used to literally talk to people I happened to sit next to on the bus - complimenting something they’re wearing, talking about the weather, asking them what they’re reading all work to start conversations. If they seem cool, invite them to do something (and don’t lose heart if they flake out). Good luck!

I’m going to suggest possibly irresponsible advice, but step 1 - you need to solve your depression and porn addiction, and ASAP. For that you could try therapy, and/or psilocybin or DMT… Not a heroic dose, but enough to get introspective from an altered POV. Therapy is the obvious long-term recommendation, but the psychedelic route may get you there faster, and you might learn a few things, such as your social obstructions or root causes.

Second, you need a close friend, at least one, preferably one who is also your desired romantic demographic. Maybe not someone who you’d normally “go for”, but who you’d be happy spending time with - platonically, romantically, whatever it does not matter. The goal is to ground yourself with empathy for that person, and they for you too.

Download the meetup app, find a group for one of your interests or hobbies and start attending. Might feel a bit overwhelming and you might not have lots of motivation to do it, but you gotta put yourself out there. good luck!

I’ve been in a similar place. The biggest thing I wish I had known was that 20 is still a kid. Like look at Ukraine right now. Why do you think their draft age is over 25? It is because the prefrontal cortex in the brain of humans is not fully developed until 25. You’re still a kid, and that is okay. You’re developing and it is a tough time. The whole “adult at 18” thing is totally bullshit just to have child soldiers that are easy to manipulate in a structured program. Almost everyone is struggling just like you. The more you disconnect from online media sources, the better time management you’ll have with more motivation to connect with others too.

Hey man don’t sweat it. 20 is one of the loneliest times to be a man. No money, not old enough to drink, etc. etc. the good news is that this shall pass. At this point just put yourself out there and work on yourself and school. It’s all going to pay off in the long run.

These questions helped me: picture yourself in 5-10 years, who do you want to be, what do you need to do to get there? What can YOU do, without any outside help? What kind of people would you like to find? What do you like to do or always wanted to try?

Therapy is a good option just to get yourself back into a stable mental place. If you’re a university student, your school can likely help get you in contact with some options and other resources.

I made some friends in college essentially through shared suffering. I am not that close with them anymore, but they are good people and it was fun to commiserate about bullshit finals and hot gossip from around campus. After college, I still make new friends, even in my 30’s. Basically, the best way is to find a hobby. That can be video games even; start playing an MMO or other online game and see if you can find a group of decent people to play with regularly. At any age, you can always join some kind of hobbyist group. A painting circle, an improv group, a community band, volunteer, become a regular at the gym, etc. BUT! You’re at a university; there should be all sorts of clubs, teams, initiatives etc. that you can join to meet new people. Get to know people that like the things you like, find opportunities to hang out more outside of your normal circles, and then friendships develop. But don’t join things just to make friends and meet people. Try to genuinely enjoy what it is you’re doing, because the key is to actually have that common interest. And sometimes you may need to take time to figure out what that is. I once joined some clubs because they were for things I liked, but then it turned out I didn’t like those things in social situations. Sometimes going outside of your comfort zone to try something new is the ticket—something you’d never do on your own but could be fun with others.

As far as relationship, that’s something I can’t really offer advice on because everyone is looking for something different and some people feel that need for intimacy more. The tactic that worked for me was just to not really make it an active priority, and then eventually I found someone to be happy with for a while. But I never agonized during those years I was single because it was never as huge a priority for me as it is for others, so I can’t say that the “wait and see” approach works for everyone. But you’re still young, you’ve got a lot of time to figure out what you’re looking for in a partner. The trend is that younger generations today are starting relationships, getting married, having kids etc. a lot later than previous generations, just the nature of the economy today, so don’t buy into the outdated concept that you’ve gotta find the one in your early 20’s.

There’s always the gooner community that’s very welcoming towards new members

First thing to remember is that you are not alone. We all have these feelings and anxieties. You do not have to face this alone. Find someone to talk to, it will help.

Man, you sre on Lemmy at 20. Think about that.

But as you are still in Uni, you can ask other people to discuss homework, complete it together, eat out in some food chain or a cafeteria when you have a break. You don’t turn 100% of these into friendships, a small percentage of these come to fruition, but even small connections make you not alone. You can also start gym and ask assistance there - guys like to coach others. But the same approach can be extrapolated to other places too - if you act dumb at one of the clubs you mention, some people are naturally kin to help you out, and in thid process you can talk to them.